Maybe i just expect to much from people. I don't know. maybe i do. Is it so much for me to just want to spend one night with some friends, instead of sitting at home all day alone, because i'm just an after thought. this is why i never make plans more than 4 hours in advance, because people just break them, and i get dissappointed. I know disappointment is a part of life, but it really shouldn't be every time plans are made.

I HAVE FINISHED MY COLLEGE OF EDUCATION APPLICATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's how excited I am.

2010

Peace out 2010.... I'm not sad to see you go. As much as I have complained about this year, you were as bad as you could have been.

So... I was gonna do a recap of my year month by month... but i got bored with that. so i'll just recap the major events.

1. Returned to Winthrop.... after taking a semester off.
2. Roomed with my best frannd. and luckily... still call her my best frannd
3. Made many trips to Greenville and Rock Hill.
4. Totaled my car...... but it wasn't my fault!
5. Got a Tattoo.
6. Went to summer school..... not as fun as it sounds!
7. Said goodbye to Poppa... miss you every day.
8. Saw family that I haven't seen since middle school.
9. Moved into an apartment with roomie/best frannd.
10. Got a dog with roomie/best frannd.

I laughed, I cried, I threw things, I hugged, I loved, I lost all in 2010.

Dear 2011,
2010 was a hard year. Please be nicer. I promise we can have some good times.

cause i can

So, since this is my blog about random things, i have a random thought for you.

i love my family. like forreal. my family is awesome! and i love all of my family, so very much... but this particular thought is about my grandma margert.

growing up, I can remember spending the night at her house. I LOVED spending the night at grandma's house, because we got bedtime snacks. now, when i was little i called the bed-night snacks. but we always got to have a snack around 10. which was WAYYYY past my bedtime. i always would request a chocolate milk shake. which was hand made of course. Grandma would have vanilla ice cream, add some milk, and ALOT of chocolate syrup, and stir until all the ice cream was smooth, and milky.

So, as i just stood in my kitchen making me some chocolate milk (the legit kind with chocolate syrup, not Nesquick, which is grosssss!!!) i had an overwelming urge to call up my fabulous grandmother and tell her i love her. but since it is now 12:26 in the morning, i will wait.

moral of the story, if you don't have a grandma like mine, you are missin out!

Novemember 11th.

i never realized how much i loved the small things in my life.

every year on novemeber 11th i always either called my grandfather or went to his house to see him, just to thank him for his service to our country.

Today, i got ready to pick up the phone to call him, but realized he wouldn't answer.

I guess one thing of deal with death is getting used to not doing the things you used to do all the time.

Both of my grandfathers served in the Navy. One died before i was born, but the other died in August. This is the first time i have really realized that he isn't here.

stupid

I went to Scarowinds tonight... why? i have no earthly idea. i don't like being scared, so why would i pay 27.99 to be scared all night? this is a very good question, one that i do not have the answer too. i suppose cause all of my friends were going.

i know i know. peer pressure is never a good thing. but oh well. i rode some rides. had a clown follow me... kinda (and ps. i'm terrified of clowns) all in all it was a pretty good time.

today was nice and relaxing. i did homework while pup pup slept. oh yeah. we got a dog. but that is a different blog for a different day.

thats about all i have for right now, caues i'm sleepy, and i don't function well with no sleep.

nighty night!

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know what is sad/sucks... i don't remember how tall my dad is. or the last time i hugged him when he was standing up.

oh well. life goes on.