2010

Peace out 2010.... I'm not sad to see you go. As much as I have complained about this year, you were as bad as you could have been.

So... I was gonna do a recap of my year month by month... but i got bored with that. so i'll just recap the major events.

1. Returned to Winthrop.... after taking a semester off.
2. Roomed with my best frannd. and luckily... still call her my best frannd
3. Made many trips to Greenville and Rock Hill.
4. Totaled my car...... but it wasn't my fault!
5. Got a Tattoo.
6. Went to summer school..... not as fun as it sounds!
7. Said goodbye to Poppa... miss you every day.
8. Saw family that I haven't seen since middle school.
9. Moved into an apartment with roomie/best frannd.
10. Got a dog with roomie/best frannd.

I laughed, I cried, I threw things, I hugged, I loved, I lost all in 2010.

Dear 2011,
2010 was a hard year. Please be nicer. I promise we can have some good times.

cause i can

So, since this is my blog about random things, i have a random thought for you.

i love my family. like forreal. my family is awesome! and i love all of my family, so very much... but this particular thought is about my grandma margert.

growing up, I can remember spending the night at her house. I LOVED spending the night at grandma's house, because we got bedtime snacks. now, when i was little i called the bed-night snacks. but we always got to have a snack around 10. which was WAYYYY past my bedtime. i always would request a chocolate milk shake. which was hand made of course. Grandma would have vanilla ice cream, add some milk, and ALOT of chocolate syrup, and stir until all the ice cream was smooth, and milky.

So, as i just stood in my kitchen making me some chocolate milk (the legit kind with chocolate syrup, not Nesquick, which is grosssss!!!) i had an overwelming urge to call up my fabulous grandmother and tell her i love her. but since it is now 12:26 in the morning, i will wait.

moral of the story, if you don't have a grandma like mine, you are missin out!

Novemember 11th.

i never realized how much i loved the small things in my life.

every year on novemeber 11th i always either called my grandfather or went to his house to see him, just to thank him for his service to our country.

Today, i got ready to pick up the phone to call him, but realized he wouldn't answer.

I guess one thing of deal with death is getting used to not doing the things you used to do all the time.

Both of my grandfathers served in the Navy. One died before i was born, but the other died in August. This is the first time i have really realized that he isn't here.

stupid

I went to Scarowinds tonight... why? i have no earthly idea. i don't like being scared, so why would i pay 27.99 to be scared all night? this is a very good question, one that i do not have the answer too. i suppose cause all of my friends were going.

i know i know. peer pressure is never a good thing. but oh well. i rode some rides. had a clown follow me... kinda (and ps. i'm terrified of clowns) all in all it was a pretty good time.

today was nice and relaxing. i did homework while pup pup slept. oh yeah. we got a dog. but that is a different blog for a different day.

thats about all i have for right now, caues i'm sleepy, and i don't function well with no sleep.

nighty night!

blah

know what is sad/sucks... i don't remember how tall my dad is. or the last time i hugged him when he was standing up.

oh well. life goes on.

the small thing

This weekend i was able to go on the CSF fall retreat. I didn't quite have the right attitude as we loaded the buses on Friday. I had a lot going on that past week with school and such, and the next week looked just as hectic. I had been really stressed out and hadn't slept well that past week, and not gonna lie... i just wanted to sleep in on Saturday, and i really didn't want to wake up at the butt crack of dawn for breakfast and worship. But I said to myself, I haven't missed a CSF retreat yet, and i don't plan on starting this year. Not to mention Jessica was going on the retreat and I would have been lonely at home alone if I didn't go.

Looking back, I'm so glad I didn't give into temptation and not go. This past weekend did more for my 'mental' state than anything else. For the first time in a while, I laughed and not like a hey this is sorta funny so imma laugh cause everyone else is laughing. But i legit laughed for a good ten minutes. I am so thankful for the friends that God has placed in my life this year. I honestly could not imagine my life without my friends at CSF.
I also love being in the mountains. The mountains make me remember what it is like to be a child again. When there are not as many stresses in life. I always feel at home in the mountain and at peace with life. Something about sitting in a rocking chair on a porch overlooking a breath taking view just gives me chills.

As I was sitting in a rocking chair this weekend looking out of this absolutely breath taking view I had to wonder, how can someone not believe that there is a God, and that he created this all for us.

I believe that is all i have to ramble about today!

livin my life... yo.

So, alot has been going on for me this past month. I am struggling with alot of it, and feel like i'm taking it out all on my friends. This is not fair to them or myself. I guess i don't really know how to feel about alot that has happened this past month. I always try to not deal with things and push them to the back of my mind... but in this case, i could not do that.... it kinda slapped me in the face. it was kinda like "yo. i'm a life changing event and i'm here to rock your world' kinda thing. so... it is kinda forcing me to deal with it.... which not gonna lie.... this blog will probably be about me dealing with life and such.

But, i don't wanna make anyone sad with this blog, cause i'm kinda an upbeat person most of the time. my life is crazy and everyday something new and exciting happens... well... most days. i try to make them interesting.

what mainly makes my life crazy is living with some crazy girl named Jessica... she's a fool. but she keeps me laughing.

this blog post has not point really. but hopefully in the future it will consist of my daily random thoughts... which let me tell ya is a lot.